unlucky months

im happy not because

• i got 8th/9 in my modelling course.
• i owed debts everywhere
• i lost my passport
• i sold my laptop
• i owed sch fees

BUT RATHER I FOUND MY YANGYANG 2 DAYS AGO.

oh my god. im so damn worried. i thought i could nv find him again. missing for 1 whole day man.

here's how the story goes:

i returned home feeling very jaded after helping my dad to tend the shop from 4 am to next day 7 pm, although i did have a few hrs of sleep in the shop itself.

both of them, yangyang and qiqi tried to rush out of the door as they usually do excitedly but stopped by my musculine feet to shove them in. (both of them just simple loves going out of the house)

i thought both of them are in the house already so i closed the door and chatted on msn a little while before i head to the 'comfort of dreams'.

while on bed, i called out for yangyang, he never responds. i thought he still fuming from that i beated him yesterday for peeing on my bed which i had not been doing for a few months, so i continued sleeping.

however when i woked up the next day morning, i called out yangyang's name, he stills doesnt respond. i sensed something was amissed. i search everywhere, every corners in my house but still no sights of him. i went down to the blocks nearby, searched almost every blocks but in vain.

after my modelling award presentation, i went straight home with printed notices and my brother's gf also went to my home too. before i even prepared to paste my 1st notice on my block below, i called my bro's gf and found out that she found yy. what a miracle. i thought i was dreaming, i rushed down immediately.

a kid was seen bringing yy walk around, my bro's gf was broke and she gave the kid ang bao of only $6! LOLS. we are damn poor loh after printing the notices.

another suay thing happened today.

i accidentally locked myself out of my own room. luckily found the keys or else have to break the door down.

i think i would have plenty of suay happenings to blog about this few months. hope luck will change for the better.

meanwhile some pics.

damn hilarious, lucas and i went bonkers. decided to try out some expressions for those heavenly taste and stunned looks after eating food.





















































some dumb snack i saw at starbucks.

yangyang where are you?

i just woke up today and cant find my dog, a pomo.

i suspect i might let him out of the house without noticing it since i returned home feeling very jaded yesterday.

please help. i love him very much, i searched for him for hours but in vain.

he is lost in marsiling drive, blk 25.

please email me by my1stxii@gmail.com if u found him, as my hp line is cancelled, i cannot be contacted by phone.

thank you very much for your help.

some characteristics/ facts:

• name: yangyang
• male
• breed: pomeranian
• around 3 years old
• unsterilised
• golden/yellow fur
• understands sit down command
• when u place ur hand near his paws, he will lift his paw up to offer handshake

note: he only behaves (eg. sit down command, handshake, respond to call for his name) that way at a house, he seems very lost if he is in a 'outside' environment

friends forever?

fuck this statement. this statement can go to hell.

recently i've just been proven wrong.

i finally know why a-used-to-be very good friend of mine did not contact me as often as he used to for this few years.

i thought he might be busy with his sch, hanging with new friends. NS, i moved to woodlands difficult to meet up or whatever. but i was wrong, since he went into ite, he changed. til now then i realised i've been a fool, i naively thought we can be back the bestest of friends when we are in primary sch til secondary. ever since i was separated into another class in sec 3, the distances between us kept growing.

drifting apart.

becos we were born in more well-to-do families, majority of us lives in a condo, he lived in HDB.
i never looked down on him. i treat him as best friends. even though ka wing speaks ill of him that he forgotten old friends already. i still hung on to hopes, eventually he will come back and hang as often as we used to be.

sometimes i tried to contact him to ask him out, he never answered. i thought he was busy.
i tried and tried.
ultimately, i was tired of tiring.

i gave up.

i never knew why he did not contact me.

i finally did now.

someone told me, he thought of us (the grp of old primary/sec friends) as childish and show-offs.

i certainly did not expect that. i think i was really smug when i was young. im not rich now. for your info, i moved to HDB some years ago after sec 4. i've changed. maybe he doesnt know that.

from now onwards, he will be just a acquaintance to me. i'll be a hypocrite and just say "hello and bye bye" in a smiley face, provided if i get to see him.

Failed my POP (passing out parade)

the result are only known this coming saturday. but i know how well i fared.

i felt feverish that day probably due to the fact of the hot weather, walking around with heavy lugguage for tt 1 bloody cab to the venue.

i lost concentration easily, did badly in catwalks, mtv, tv commercial and acting sections. even my usually strong Q&A i stuttered. nervous.

damn disappointed with myself. i guess this is the end of my modelling career. but its not the end of me. i shall take this as a lesson to change my laidback attitude. strive on my studies.

i still hope my image director give me a chance to stay on.

i guess most of my friends dont know im in the modelling line. i shall blog about the 10 weeks course i had in this few days.

anyway was kind of sad, to see the new mac donalds commercial. i was supposed to be the featured talent, very near the camera. but becos of my terrible complexion, they put me far away with other extras in other table.

the saddest thing was that they eventually deleted the scene when i expect at least to see a small bit of myself in it.

anyway, some pics of me in zara blazer.