been there since 11 am, 8 pm end class.

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freaking long hours loh. shagged until not much appetite.

anyway jud is a darn good story teller, is he who makes it interesting, not the story itself. i was laughing my jaws out. but the back part is damn stressful got to improve alot on it.

next week is androgynous. i didnt even know how to create simple look, whats more androgynous look.

anyway, i decided to stop wearing my diamond studs. its already a passe. if you can shine, why do you need a stud to help you right?

lately i haven thinking alot. i constantly reminding myself not to be naive: stop all those wishful thinkings. u've been hurt, rejected countless of times. the fear of rejection gripes me.

why open yourself to more dejection. but when i seriously thought about it, i don't want my life to be filled with regrets, because i don't even know how it feels like to be in love.
is it sweet? is it bitter? sour?

it was my stupidity to begin with: wishful thinking. it was never love in the beginning, it was pure friendship. i guess i'll nv have the chance to give out the present which was suppose to give it to her at january. i shall throw it away or give it other people instead.

anyone interested? Lollipops?

anyway here's some pic of what's inside the overdued present:


hand-made stuff, necklace, glass of queen.


b'day card, box filled with lollipops and her name in frame.

some dumb self-made stuff

thats all. i wonder if the ants have already been inside the box already anot.

so much about living life to the fullest. what the hell.

i'm jaded. i really am. sometimes i wonder the purpose of living in this world.

an emotional night.
its late.
nights everybody.

P.S i guess everybody must been bored with the songs. uploaded new songs. i think its old, but i loved the song, boston. touching.

Updated: cant upload boston, i dunno why. tried different hosting webby. even they are against me. listen to what hurts most bah, also not bad.