What the heck.

I still don't know how or why this happen.

I don't know what to say.

Darn.

Alot things happened recently.

Mixed feelings.

Been going out alot.

• Last friday (before that accompany lucas go that modelling company) went to TCC with Mala, Zoe, Pris & Alan.
• Saturday went to Orchard with Ka Wing and Billy, after that went to Qiu Hao's place and stayed overnight.
• Sunday went to visit my grandmum in hospital (she unexpectedly passed away when her condition seems to get better)
• Mon-Tues (Funeral), evening return Spore
• Wed nv go sch =p, went to meet Queenie for breakfast instead =)

Bought some stuff too.

1. Sat to Hereen, bought 2 Flesh Imp tees as there are 20% discount and additional 10% for me as i am member.
2. Tues night to Vivo's City, bought a x'mas chocolate tree from chocolate factory for her.
   

I wanted to upload alot alot of photos but darn, you know is a freaking draggy process!

Wednesday summary:

As i said, i went to have breakfast with Queenie. Its the third time in 3 weeks i meet her but dunno why i didn't blog about it.


3 times in a row, we went mac. Boring. Only once we eat, the other 2 times just drink.


Today gave her the present for early advance x'mas. She was surprised. Hope she like it. Add two ensaymada (philipines cheese bun) in the paper bag in case she was hungry during her cca break.


Walked her to her sch afterwards.
She is flying on friday to Japan/Korea for 3 weeks, my hp gonna be very quiet for this 3 weeks.

Saw her friendster profile, in it got one sentence "=]lols.now tat i hab found euu,=]"

Is she referring to me? I have no idea. I hope so though.


*To my grandma, Rest In Peace.


*To my dad, please don't be sad, perhaps it is a jie tuo for grandma. Hate to see you like that. You seldom cry, seeing your tears welled in your eyes, i can't hold back mine too. I'm a unfilial son, i didn't do anything to give you a better life.


*I dunno why. Its always like that, don't know why you all always angry for nothing. I can't do anything except saying sorry. I'm sorry to say that seeing you all upset spoils my day. I appreciate all of your concern for me though.

Fishing was the plan today.

Ironic.

Why?

Caught none.

We travel in sea more than the time we fish. It was more like a exploring trip rather than fishing trip.



Went out to the open sea in 6 pm, pretty late due to delayed in some minor matters.

The sun was sun-setting. The horizon emmits a blazing red ray. The scenary was beautiful. The sky was clear, the air was dust-free (well, almost).

My bro was steering the boat, he took us to one place for us to stop and fish. But all the time, our baits were eaten or there was no fish.

We decided to change our location, my dad called us. He meet us in a kelong nearby in the middle of the sea.





After a while, we saw a blue boat heading towards us, we presume it was my dad. But then, by the time the sky was already dark and the lighting on the boat was very dim. It was as if no one was steering the boat.

But of course, we can see him when he was inches infront of us, but he was 'faceless'. The light is too dim.

Damn eerie.

We need to shine the torch on him to identitfy him.

My dad later told us, he need to go collect some 'live' seafood in a 'kelong'-wooden floating village. We accompanied him. The initial route to the place, was surrounded by alot of trees (those sights were very similar to anaconda movie, the trees, the rivers) and there was no lights. Absolutely no lights. We can only use my torch light or light stick to increase our visibility.

Even with those light stick or torch light, i would say visibility was only 10%. No exaggerrating.

Then at one point. My dad's boat suddenly stopped. He turned and suddenly smiled. (My god, why can't u choose a better timing for this?) Damn scary you know. Exactly like replica of a horror movie.

It was a few seconds later then he begin to speak. My mind already envisioned with those dialogues from those creepy movies.

Example: "Heh heh heh, you followed the wrong person. Now come to me....."

But to our relief, he said , " I stopped because i wanted to test your eyesight, to stop in time to avoid colliding with my boat".

It was only 30 mins later we reach that 'kelong', where there are lights. Suddenly felt there is 'life' again, breathe more easily.

This is one heck of a hell experience for us. And especially for my bro, to test his boat steering skill.

My bro is 26, he is scared too and so is his girlfriend. So can you imagine how creepy it is to be out there? Darkness surrounds you. There is uncertainty because you're there thinking, "What if my boat breaks down or run out of fuel?" or "What if we lost our way, who we gonna call for help?"

Being in boat is twice the fear factor induced then being in a car when travelling in darkness. Especially if you lose your way.

Imagine my dad. 60 years old. Travelling around like this almost everyday, by himself, alone to get his stocks for his restaurant.

Hahs, he got 10+ years experience but i still worried about him.

Ok enough of it, here's the pic:

Ok i admit for once, i'm zhi lian.

My hair sucks today, thanks windy brother.

Thanks again windy brother. Kuku hair style.

I'm a anchor man!

Fireworks. Unspoken agreement on corruption of malaysian police to allow fireworks (provided u give them $ lim kopi when kanna caught =p) when its illegal in Malaysia.

To Singaporeans: "Too bad, your govt is not flexible to let u play fireworks, only can play with light sticks, WAHAHA"

Just went to view his blog.

Realised that i'll never be good enough for her.

HAPPENINGS

Yesterday very tulan. Lost my sim card.

Was at Chinatown, then Lucas wanted to check his messages with my phone as his hp's battery is flat (not ur fault).

So i removed my sim card then i guess i put inside my hp pouch, hand very itchy, swing my hp pouch.

Reached Dhoby Mrt station then realised my sim card was missing. Detour back to Chinatown to search but to no avail. People might thought i'm a weirdo, pacing back and forth.

Haiz, then cannot msg her, no mood go sch. So decided to bontank.

Today woke up. Meet billy, went to PS to get replacement for my sim card. Luckily 1st time is FOC, second time then is $21.

After that, he accompany me browse wallets at taka. Bought a Guy Lorache wallet, costs $63.20 after 20% discount (U.P $73), discounts are so good!

My most expensive wallet to date.

Anyway my previous wallet was from Top Men, bought during shopping for my prom clothes, costs only $22. Lasted for 2 years plus. Old and ragged already, great timing for a change.

From this to....THIS!

Comparision

Nice ya?

No? Go to hell!

Next stop, Bugis.

Billy went to fix his watch, think the battery something wrong, watch time is slowly than normal time.

Pass by a fashion show, DC label. You guys should have seen it before. Those superheroes logos inprint on shirts de. Superman, batman design etc.

The host was a suave australian (judged by his accent), once he said freebies if u do ** or do ***, people rushed.

omg. Singaporeans.

Hahs, i admit i do have the urge to rush forward to ge the freebies too, because u all have to do is to show his one of ur item. Any. Ipod, hp or t-shirt. Ur dog. Ur mother. Ur father. ANYTHING!

Haha, in the end of course i did not rush to get that free DC t-shirt, it would look so SINGAPOREAN and uncool.

A rapper came out and rap about those 'item' that were shown in the freebies thing to the beat of another guy, a beat boxer. Not a easy task for the rapper.

After that, a group of guys came out and did the hip-hop dances, they did pretty well. Most surprisingly is that the host himself actually did some break dances move and amusing robot mimic dance. That was breathtaking . You might even mistake he is a pro (is he?).

Truly is HIDDEN DRAGON CROUCHING TIGER!

I enjoyed the show.

Thats all for today.

*By the way, i bought a new hp pouch. Or rather sock. It was like the previously ipod sock but this time for my hp. No more swinging.

FRUSTRATED

See my friend msn nick i also tulan.

Because it says "WOOT. i think today maths paper's a breeze.WEE - i hope it'll be like that for all paper"

Na bei. I have no excuse for myself.

I think total time studied for this paper 1 is: 1 hr

Thats all. For one whole year.

One fucking whole year.

I'm still wondering how did i failed last year's o levels (maths D7 = ITE). I tried.
But not to the fullest. Not fully committed. But i tried.

I never really tried my best in my sec life.

Today my maths paper is a guarantee failure. No doubt. Almost all anyhow do, most of my work last year i forget le.

I can blame no one. I thought ITE was very slack, thanks to Billy's testimonial. But only Nitec, higher Nitec ain't slack.

After my exams, went to meet Billy.

Took my last year's O levels cert. Met some teachers along the way which i don't wish to as i was too pai seh. 2 years of taking O's and still a failure, i'm ashamed to face my teachers, they were committed in teaching me but yet i failed them.

Mrs Raj, Mr Seah, and Mrs Poh are some who saw me and asked, " How are you?" and came the next (my most dreaded question) "Where are you studying now?"

*Thats the reason i asked Billy to accompanied me. I don't want to face the music alone.

"Err...Clementi ITE"

"Oh i see, work hard huh..u can get to poly.' (Hope so)

"Ya, thanks"

I knew some of them is genuinely concerned about well-wishing me, but i not sure if they looked down on me.

Most of the people stereotyped ITE is It's the end. But they were wrong. I'm not consoling myself. I ashamed to say that i'm one of the people who stereotyped people.

I'm one of those who used to say, "i rather die than go to ITE, no future de".
But ITE changed my opinion, i more optimistic now, although its quite a longer route.

Mr seah said, "Longer route but better than no route mah"

He's right.

I also saw the principal and my chinese teacher (forget her name, how could i? I love her because she is one of the few who cares for me), chatted awhile with my chinese teacher but she was in a rush, guess she was tired after the educational trip for the students.

When she ask me that question, i only said, "Clementi" and she did not probe further.
I just cannot confidently say it out, i failed her.

Then after all the drama, i went to the drink stall to chat with Auntie Alice, she was nice when i was there in my sec life. Always give me discounts and today treated me a drink. Billy and i chatted with her for a awfully long time, guess we have alot to catch up. Laughter was there too.

Left the sch and ate at the Hong Kong Cafe, once featured in the channel 8 news before. I wanted to try it long ago. But east coast is too far and nobody is willing to accompanied me. But it opened a new branch in Novena might as well take the chance to try it.

Took a glance at the menu.

WTF!

So fucking expensive.

Mostly were $7.50 and above!

The cheapest are $4.80. All this were hawker fares in HK.

But this is SG u say. I say FUCK U.

Ok la, joking.

I ordered a beef brisket noodles and a si mud tea (argh fuck it, its the same as teh tarik, so many pattern for what).

The food were mediocre maybe abit better than the food courts. The si mud tea were slighty more "nong" (aroma) than the indians teh tarik.

Beef brisket costs $7.80
Si mud tea costs $2.50 (WTF, teh tarik only $1.20)

Who knows, i might bring her here to this HK cafe.

After the meal, we went to play pool.

But i played like shit. Even straight ball also cannot go in, my hands were shaky, cannot hold still.

Kanna thrash in the 1st few games. The afterwards (a awful long while) i played better but still loses. Disappointed with my form.

*Got one scene, Billy took a picture of me playing pool, the wall was obstructing my pool cue, i unscrewed the cue into 2 parts and use the shorter one to aim, damn funny. Will upload it when i have time.

I want to be a successful person, both in character and career wise, even in love. Otherwise its not even worth living for.

I hope 1 day, i can go in my sec school proudly and say confidently to my ex-teachers that i got a degree cert (u might say im ambitous who cares). That will be my proudest moment.


I wanna say sorry to those who put their hopes in me and waited in vain. I will repay your faith in me.

Please trust me.

Sorry brother, sis, dad and mum.

*Phew~ I shall end it here, my frustrations. I know you all are bored by it.

Today i was stopped in Orchard by a young girl, she gave me her name card.

It was a models company called create talents pte ltd. The same one that Billy was approached last time.
I knew they were profit orientated company.

Relax, i'm not so naive, i know my limits.

But if she give me her name card that means i'm still decent looking as a human.
At least i get some recognition.

Dammit. I damn blur.

Took the wrong bus.

Was near the school at about 10, waited for my usual bus, 963.

Then from afar i saw a bus with the bus number ending with 3.

Then i instantly assumed it was 963.

Sat in bus for quite awhile, then notice a poster for the overview of bus 173.

I thought, "why the hell, 963 would post 173 route information on its bus".

Something was obviously wrong. The bus was not crowded, usually it cramped with those inconsiderate aunties.

The view of the routes the bus, going was not familiar at all. Then i saw a road name ,"Kechil".

Argh! fuck.

so damn tired le still took the wrong bus. Alighted at Bukit Timah beauty world, and took 961 to woodlands.